Just a little bit of practice

I have a little bit of time before leaving Colombia because of that I´m going to start speaking and writing in english, I need to practice. Adam wants to be next to people that can help me by talking to me in english but I don´t know why, I always am nervous when I try to speak with other people. I´m not shy but in this moment I´m a stupid shy girl. I have had a psychologic trauma since I was in the university. When people tried to speak in english during the class everyone began to laugh and all the time they were making jokes. I need to erase this memory from my mind. Sometimes I feel very ridiculous especially when I try to say "girl" or "world"... I can´t say these words, It sounds very funny. The only person that I can speak to without problems is Adam. When I met him I couldn´t speak any word in english but during the 17 months of our relationship he has been teaching me. He´s the best teacher that I have met in my life. He´s very patient. Thanks to him I can say some sentences in english. I need to improve my english during the next five months. Adam and I are looking for new jobs in other countries and it´s obvious that I have to dominate english very well or if not I´m going to have serious problems getting a good job. During the last trip to California, everyone told him that it´s very necessary that I speak english very fluidly. I´m very scared about this but in the same time I´m very excited and motivated. I know that I´m going to achieve this.